miley is gone

so sadly my time as miley's owner was very short lived. she was seriously the best dog i could have asked for. so behaved and just so cuddly. i could go on forever about her and how much i loved her. i honestly did not think i would get so attached to her in the the short time i had her. but i really i did. i hated leaving her for the day while i worked and couldnt wait to see her when i got home. she was just so mellow and relaxed all the time. i loved her very much.

well almost 3 weeks ago was one of the worst days ever. i was going out of town for the weekend and received an awful phone call from my parents (who were dog sitting for me) telling me that miley got out of the house. i immediately thought "oh no she has run away and my parents are out frantically searching for her" i thought this with the hope that they would find her. what was reality was far more devastating. they said she got out and ran. and ran and ran. my sister chased her on foot and my parents both got into cars and tried to catch her. i know she was running in hopes of finding home. finding me. i really was the only one she would cuddle with and listen to. she literally followed me every where that i went. i had never left her before and i know she was scared.  anyways she m

ade is probably almost 10 blocks from my parents house to one of the more busy intersections. my parents called to tell me that as she ran across the street she was hit by a car and did not make it. i immediately began sobbing. i never thought this would happen or that i would feel all the emotions that i felt at the moment. it was terrible. no way to describe it. i was about 2 hours from vegas at the time and i cried almost the entire way there. i cried myself to sleep that night thinking about her being gone. i was super busy that weekend which helped keep my mind off of her. as we began the drive home and reached barstow i began to cry and continued until we got home. it was setting in that she was not going to be there when i got home. i wouldnt see her. she wouldnt jump in my lap and cuddle with me. it got worse the closer we got to home until i finally laid in my bed and just sobbed. grieving over the loss of my puppy whom i had grown to love so much. i honestly never thought i would be one of those dog people who loved their animal and basically considered it family.

but i am. and i miss her so much. i have her blanket that she liked to sleep on still on my bed and i refuse to wash it yet because it still smells like miley. and it was her blanket and so it 

helps not miss her so much. it has been 3 weeks but i still feel very sad and cry 

about it sometimes. i want another dog someday. but that day is far away. the pain is still too bad. and the thought of losing another pet is not something i can handle. 

so here is 

another picture of my cute little puppy

ya she was pretty awesome..she winked

thug life

"What up G?"

sweet

its been a long week in teacher world. yet it has flown by. 

having a sub in theory sounds like a great idea. i mean a day off??? who doesnt love that? key word. theory. it is actually so much more of an inconvenience. having to write good plans so things you WANT done will actually GET done. leaving your kids minds in the hands of complete strangers. you work so hard to get them to learn and try to learn and then one day off in the mix brings ya back to square one in the learning game. and no matter how much you train them how to behave with a sub (or in my case threaten) they just cant seem to get it right....all this to preface why my week has seemed so...ugh

i had a sub half day tuesday

half day wednesday

all of thursday (which is our minimum day)

and we went on a field trip today.(which was SOOOO fun...but very tiring)

so my class got a total of two days instruction with me this week. 

which makes it difficult to keep up with the pacing set by my school when the subs did not get a chance to teach or cover all of the things i needed done. so i must reteach and continue to teach what i need to in order to stay on track. enough with the ranting. 

bottom line its been a long week...

that ended wonderfully. the boyfriend was very sweet and came over with chinese take out for dinner. it was so nice to just stay at home. to stay in and have dinner and be able to just lounge and relax. much needed. and VERY appreciated. he is ok...i think i might keep him

a day

today was a day. work. i love my job. i love my students...even though i tell them i am going to have an aneurism by the time i turn 26 due to some of them...or the few of them that i say lay awake at night thinking of ways to drive me crazy.. i love each and every one of them. but today was just one of those days when nothing seemed to go right in the classroom. i didnt have the materials ready that i thought i had ready when i needed them. so i got to use my creative juices and come up with some engaging and educational activities. it all worked out and i think some learning happened today. which is all i ask some days. i have lots of duties outside of the classroom that i am responsible for. science camp is one of them. i have never been and am excited to be able to experience this opportunity with my students. along with being a chaperone...i am actually being the coordinator for my school. which is great... but there is SOOO much that goes into it. i found out later than i should have and have missed a few deadlines for the school board but i have great administrators that are working with me and the board to get all the approvals i need on time. my deadline for the final list of names for camp was due before christmas break but i got it moved to this friday. i just had my last meeting with the two classes that were off track today. and to just say it...it was HECTIC...ugh nothing went right from the copies i needed, to having a translator, to having the video that i needed to show. but in the end...i think it went ok.

its been difficult getting back into the groove of working. i really got used to havin some time off...but it will happen. hopefully. :-) 

today was a thoughtful day. meaning introspective. just some things that have happened really made me think about myself and things i think and i feel and continue to process through. but having all of that going on in my head did NOT help my rough day at work. so today was weird. rough. and thoughtful.

blah blah blah

miley

i got a dog about a week ago. i rescued her. her name is miley. i am absolutely in love with her. she is so mellow and a really good apartment dog. she is house trained and just likes to cuddle. 

this is her watching my computer screen as i check my email. she is laying on her spot in the bed. (yes i have become that person who lets their dogs sleep with them) isnt she so cute? (she has a cut on her ear from before i got her. it bleeds a lot. so i use some good old  neosporin and bandaids) 

and now she is ready for bed...goodnight!!!!

tomorrow is the day...

that josh comes home. i am so excited. words cant describe it. and honestly i didnt think i would miss him THIS much. but i have learned a lot and become very thankful for the friendship and relationship that i have with him. i am so blessed. it is a constant growing process 

but God is so good and has really blessed me. 

while he was gone, i wrote him a love note each night before bed. i plan on placing them around his room tomorrow before i pick him up for the airport. some of the notes are just sweet love notes ;-) holla and some of them are remembering special moments and times of our

 relationship....there are also little gifts that go along with some of them... ( i know what you are thinking... and yes i am that amazing)

i am also planning a special surprise. before josh left, he really wanted to spend time with ty-his nephew. and due to sickness and the craziness of leaving the country for three weeks, he was not able to see little ty. it made josh really sad. and when ty would come visit me he would always ask if we were going to josh's house. when i said we were going to nina's church, he said NO...Josh's church. so....

i am havin ty spend the night and we are making a "welcome home uncle josh" poster tomorrow and he is going with me to surprise uncle josh. :-) josh will be so excited...i cant wait to see his face...

maddy

i invited my sister and her daughter madison on a date tonight. it was a glorious way to spend my saturday. we used our traditional gift cards from our great grandparents to in-n-out for dinner :-) and then watched a movie at my apartment since taking a 10 month old baby to a movie theater is not on my list of favorite things to do. we watched a movie with the roommate and just spend time enjoying my little niece. she is growing up so fast. i am very blessed to be a part of her life. she has brought so much joy to our family. i love my little maddy